Mother still teaches me

Again much time has gone by since I last posted. It is difficult. However, mother said something interesting today that I wanted to share.

I went to see her in the early morning and I asked if she'd had breakfast. She said yes, but it wasn't very good. I suggested we'd go get her some hot chocolate, which I know she loves. She said she had given up chocolate. "Why?" I asked. "Because there is no use to it, it is just for my enjoyment". I spent the next few minutes trying to convince her that enjoying something is a good thing. I don't think I got through.

She also said she doesn't wear her nice clothes because she worries that others do not have nice clothes to wear. I asked how having nice clothes hanging in the closet and not enjoying them helped those who didn't have nice things to wear. She did not respond.

Once again she has shown me a choice I do not want to make.